Not an apology.
knicq posted in Knicqisms on February 27th, 2006
Jalali Baba had once remarked that quite frequently my posts are little more than contorted apologies for not having updated in a long time. The inevitable deduction was that I do not update on purpose so that I can put up these apologies as excuses for updates. It was an allegation I should have resented, which I think I duly did too. Increasingly, however, that false accusation is proving a self-fulfilling prophecy, and I, therefore, hold Jalali Baba responsible for the current dismal record of updates on this blog, and the ensuing apologies made necessary by that dismal record. I am not one to sit in a corner and sulk though, which is why I am not going to let this update become an apology. There are topics aplenty to tackle, and I would do well to dwell on those, however for the record, had it not been for my resolve to undo the JBiic curse, this update would in fact have been an apology.
Just in case, you are not one of the handful benefactors of this place, who continue to visit here, and subject themselves to my gibberish out of the goodness of their hearts, and despite the best council of their therapists to the contrary, and are hence wondering why I am so particular about the apology part, allow me to elaborate. www.knicq.com is a vile place, nothing of consequence ever occurs here, unless of course you take into account the comments the blog visitors leave behind. I am a narcissist, one who often gets the spelling of the word narcissist wrong, but is loathe to admitting it ought to be spelled any different. My narcissism is the lone motivation behind this place staying active, but for the life of me I cannot understand what masochistic motives keep bringing those people back for more. Jalali Baba offers a simplistic explanation. He is of the opinion that these people are on a conquest of self, and their conquest requires them to maintain a saintly conduct with the spiritually under-priveleged. It might just be the narcissism, but I am proud of my contribution to the spiritual well-being of these people, and when one happens to be the cog in so many spiritual wheels, an apology is the least one can tender when one has not offered any spiritual challenges by way of updates to such exalted souls.
This, dear friends, is thus not an apology, but an update…bordering on an apology.
March 1st, 2006 at 9:48 am
let us count the number of times “apology” or some form of it is used in this so-called “update”…
hope all is well knicq bhai! busy, clearly, but well inshallah.
March 1st, 2006 at 8:33 pm
There are topics aplenty to tackle, and I would do well to dwell on those
Indeed you would… or rather, you would have done well, had you dwelled on the said topics for more than a millisecond
Good to hear from you, and hope things are well Insha Allah.
March 1st, 2006 at 10:20 pm
round and round the mulberry bush,
the monkey chased the weasel,
the monkey said it’s all for fun,
pop goes the weasel.
up and down the city road,
in and out the eagle,
that’s the way the barney goes,
pop goes the weasel.
never was able to make sense out of the nursery rhyme either.
March 5th, 2006 at 9:52 am
walikum salam bhai,
jeetay rahiay - main to sumjhee aap bhool bhula chukay hon gay lekin aaj spiral of silence per comment perh kay mujhay yaad aaya kay kabhi “wo” bhi aik blog thee.
Thanks for linking -snapshots-, because this blog will have the honor of being updated (how frequesnt it happens, thats another issue)- I’ think photos are easier to post and better than saying thousand words,also writing is certainly not my forte.
and bhai this post was so much like psychology book, gol gol hi ghomay ja rahi thee
see ya around
*edit*
posting/commenting at RIGHT post
March 8th, 2006 at 9:09 pm
Anjum: I tender my heartfelt apology for using apology, the word, so many times, in the very apology like post not intended to be an apology…whats the count by the way?
Maranello: But dwell I do on those topics…its only after I stop with the dwelling that a post can materialize…you understate my dwelling time grossly…when’s our lunch happening?
Hemlock: Are there any nursery rhymes that make sense?
Ayesha: You are guilty of badgumani my dear. I was going through the archives for inspiration, and found embarrasment instead in the realization that I had not stayed in touch with one of the earliest blog pals of mine…:)Snapshot waits for an update by the way, much as this joint does…
as for the post, main abhi tak gol gol hee ghoomta chala ja raha hun…I put my non-updating to this ghoom ghumayyan!
March 9th, 2006 at 12:54 pm
i don’t know what kind of selfless, spiritually priveleged, masochistic balls of energy visit your website.. but i don’t happen to be one of em. i just like your work, especially when it’s not a convoluted apology disguised as a nebulous blog entry about all things inexcusible.